{"id":381574,"date":"2022-12-15T06:06:34","date_gmt":"2022-12-14T20:06:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/?p=381574"},"modified":"2022-12-15T06:06:34","modified_gmt":"2022-12-14T20:06:34","slug":"lost-pride-and-less-expectations","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/lost-pride-and-less-expectations\/","title":{"rendered":"Lost Pride and Less Expectations"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>\u201cThe broken heart, you think you will die, but you just keep living, day after day after terrible day.\u201d<\/em><br \/>\n\u2014from Charles Dickens\u2019 novel, Great Expectations<br \/>\n\u00a0<br \/>\n<strong>Less Than Great Expectations<\/strong><br \/>\n\u00a0<br \/>\nMy highest expectations brought heartache<br \/>\nno reciprocal love, no penny paper valentine<br \/>\nhow many times did I make that mistake<br \/>\nhurt feelings as joy and sadness combine<br \/>\n\u00a0<br \/>\nSexual attraction was not always the root<br \/>\nfor hours I pondered fields of wildflowers<br \/>\nher TV absorption made me seem moot<br \/>\nI\u2019m wet from walking in thundershowers<br \/>\n\u00a0<br \/>\nIt is not a forever feeling or final frustration<br \/>\nstill some chance for some mutual feelings<br \/>\na glance at a dance a slight manifestation<br \/>\na chance to find out with what I\u2019m dealing<br \/>\n\u00a0<br \/>\nHigh and low tides reflect love\u2019s fluctuations<br \/>\nas I learn a lesson to lower my expectations.<br \/>\n\u00a0<\/p>\n<p><strong>Perspicacity: My Pride and Punishment<\/strong><br \/>\n\u00a0<br \/>\nI am shrewd but not always in the mood<br \/>\nyou are astute and your humor is cute\u00a0<br \/>\nI try hard to ignore myself in the mirror<br \/>\nyou make your kindness much clearer<br \/>\nperhaps together we both will as well<br \/>\nwe will all get thrown under some bus<br \/>\nwe will find out which one soon enough<br \/>\n\u2018I and Thou\u2019 and Martin Buber*cry and try<br \/>\nwe will always be with who truly cares<br \/>\nwho knows where the war of words goes<br \/>\nI know everything and less than nothing<br \/>\nmy pride has little shame left I can blame<br \/>\nI lost it years ago in wars with my ego.<br \/>\n\u00a0<br \/>\n<em>*Martin Buber (1878-1965) was an Austrian-Jewish and Israeli philosopher best known for\u00a0his philosophy of dialogue, a form of existentialism centered on the distinctions between the I &#8211; THOU\u00a0<br \/>\nrelationship and the I &#8211; IT relationship.\u2014Wikipedia.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\n<em>Joey aka Pepe Batbon Connolly is a retired educator who taught in the CNMI, NOLA, and LVNV. He is a sonnet practitioner who enjoys stargazing.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cThe broken heart, you think you will die, but you just keep living, day after&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":11,"featured_media":355846,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[26,23672,23673],"class_list":["post-381574","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-opinion","tag-cnmi","tag-lvnv","tag-nola"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/381574","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/11"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=381574"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/381574\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/355846"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=381574"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=381574"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.saipantribune.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=381574"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}